“Don’t
think about carrots”
But
you will, because I just said so.
The
worst thing about our minds is that we can’t tell ourselves not to think about
something. We can try to convince ourselves that it’s not worth worrying about
or not worth over-thinking because it’s not in our control and thinking more
won’t help. But our minds have a mind of its own and it will still do so…
Sometimes
I tell people I get distracted when I try to do work and they ask what I get
distracted by. Sometimes it’s the usual things like youtube, texting, food… but
sometimes I really don’t know how to answer them. My mind has ways of wandering
into a whirlpool of half-formed thoughts – thoughts that aren’t exactly
productive, it’s not like its searching for a solution. Inconclusive thoughts
that just meander and float. They jump around from cloud to cloud, sometimes
sinking deeper into one before it escapes and fleet to another.
It’s
like how I see someone walking by and suddenly I think – this person would be really easy to pickpocket.
It’s
not that I intend to rob anyone but sometimes you just wonder about strange
things you know.