When was the last time
you did something for the first time?
I just chanced upon
this video link lying around my facebook wall. It is of a cute little girl,
just a toddler, experiencing rain for the first time. Her parents evidently
didn’t mind her getting wet and risking a cold, but went all out in support of
experiential learning by letting her hop around in the rain on the lawn. They (the parents and the child) squealed in
excitement as the girl tottered back and forth, holding her hands up to touch
the nonstop little droplets of water. Where
did this come from? It’s neverending!! The sky…it is actually a giant
showerhead!! It’s tickly and cool and oh-so-nice~
When was the last time
you felt such excitement and, if I may say so, joy?
All the time, we get
used to being used to our lives. Day in, day out, tick tock tick tock (Do you
wanna build a snowman??) I’ve done this, I’ve done that. Oh, more tutorials?
Another test. Okay. Alright. Nothing new. Again. Let’s go. Can’t wait for this
to end.
But the mentality of ‘I
can’t wait for this to end’ and living your life in a mess just to get this
period of time over with is not the way to go. What if you die tomorrow, in the
midst of poor living? You won’t ever see the other side of the hardship! How do
I make the best of this year? Much as I dislike all this studying and the
pressure and I almost lose track of why I’m doing all this, I try my best to
live each day…if not to make myself happy, to make somebody happy. It gets
mundane and sian but at least, somewhere, in a little way, I’ve shown somebody
love that God has first given me.
你的爱如此温柔，超乎我心所想
这样大有能力的主，竟捧我在手掌心上
你的爱如此深切，我知我无以报答
但愿倒空我的生命，学习你前辈的样式
举起我自己的十字架
I believe most
teenagers, maybe beyond, have felt that sort of inadequacy and helplessness,
frustration, emptiness at some point or another. Not necessarily to the extent
of being outrightly emo, but to certain extents, right? Some days for no good
reason I feel this way too. I’m just walking home from somewhere and its
evening and I don’t wanna go home and face the books yet so I take a detour to
see that patch of grass overlooking the park. Only to realize my blank-out spot
is gone due to construction and who-knows-what – motorcycle parking lots?
Everything changes, buildings get torn down, green spaces grow new buildings, trees
are chopped, too-nicely-landscaped plants are grown… But when I realize our
worthlessness in this ever-changing uncertain world, it is when I am reminded
that God is the only constant, and He is greater than anything of the world,
and He is the only sovereign Lord that can help us.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases,
His mercies never come to an end.