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Monday, April 2, 2012
Late.

I really felt afraid.
But why? It was not just about being late for school. It was a test I was going to be late for. So what? What is a test to me? A couple of marks? A grade? A number? A percentage? Why did it matter?
The bus was moving inch by inch. It has been going at that rate for more than an hour on the same stretch of road.
I was scared and worried, but that didn’t change a thing. My butt was sore from sitting at my seat so long.
What would happen if I was late for the starting time? Would they wait for me? Was anyone else in my class late? Would they let me start the paper late and have less time to finish? Or would they let me have the full 50 min from when I start? Or would they shut me up in a room while my friends did their paper, and then give me a zero because I was too late?
So many questions, no answers found.
I started to pray. I prayed so hard. “Lord, let me get there in time.”
What if He had His reasons? “Lord, help me not to worry, and truly put this journey into your hands.”
There was no alternative route, unless I could fly or teleport. At that time, all I could do was wait. So I did.
Two long hours after I left my house, the bus arrived at school.
I ran.
I was in that state of heart palpitations that I think if I had to open my mouth to speak, my voice would waver. Thank God no one required me to speak. A teacher told me to go to conference room A where all latecomers would take their respective tests. I nodded, and headed off.
With the nerve-wrecking experience, I had no idea how I was going to get my mind to calm down to prepare for the test. But once seated in the room with a whole load of other latecomers, I prayed again.
 “Lord, give me a peace of mind to think coherently and clearly, and to write legibly and with good language.
“Thank you, that I still made it.”

I don’t care how well I did for the paper (at least for now). At least I did it.