i know God has reasons for everything.but sometimes it's hard not to question:why ME?i'm unhappy.it's always me.feeling lost.feeling frustrated.feeling that sense of unbelonging...why must YOU leave me?(no im not talking about God anymore)you know i want you.(sounds sick... NO I DONT MEAN THAT)but You preferred HER. and HER.i know you still care.right?but.i feel neglected.you know that?am i not good enough for you?i know that sometimes we cant help it.i know we cant possibly stick together all the time.but.perhaps ur just too likable.everyone wants a piece of you, and then you realise im just that boring random person that only can make weird noises.and you gradually drift off like an iceberg.thats how i feel.maybe its just my emo mood now.why is it that the fly that forever buzzes around me, is always never the butterfly i long for?but despite the fly being irritating, i'm very afraid i may miss it when we leave each other soon, like the last time i left the other fly behind.i miss that fly very much.i miss having somebody to fall back on.insecurities.the weaknesses of an S personality.