oh hello again! ok, back to nat'l day!
random: u noe i actually said the pledge at 8.22 pm with the television. LOL. and my... cousin's husband's sister, i think, was saying it to someone on the phone. LOLx2.
yeah and i totally wasted monday. my section had alr planned out a 'HOLIMONDAY' section outing, but then the instructor aka mr lee wanted everybody incl JC seniors frm HCJC to come, and then he last min say he cannot make it. gah. but at least good cos xinyi and chinghui (my batch mates) were planning to abandon me. i.e. xinyi had piano lesson and chinghui wanted to go class gathering instead.lalalas. i actually hv loads of work to do. but i dunno wat to do first. andsince my blog looks deserted, i shall 'give it oxygen'! as some people i saw wrote on their blogs.yeah and if i dont post for a long time after this posting spree, at least u can slowly read and reread. or if ur lazy u can not read all of it now. savesome for when ur bored.u noe its scary.. this stage of life.. its when people are changing.. your life is changing.. every step that u take determines how your life will be in future..its hard to make perfect decisions. are there even perfect decisions, you ask me?and then parents are growing old. i can proudly say im not very rebellious.. i DO talk back of cos, if not im not a teen. anyways the point is, my parents are beginning to talk about age. do u noe how scary that sounds?u see the ahmas out there, hobbling on canes, my mom tell me. soon i'll become like that. u must help me leh.imagine your mom. or dad. i remember ever hearing my dad say this:next time if i grow old and get sick or anything, dont try to save me. just let me die when its time.its inevitable. unless you're grandparents or even older generations' people live for a very long time and are still live today, our parents usually will pass away before we do..i dont think i can live without them. not yet. please God, i pray that mummy and daddy can be my earthly guardians for a long time to come, until im really stable and ready to face the big bad world myself. Amen.sometimes i think, why must my mind think about all this stuff? i dont think many of u actually ponder about these subjects. or maybe i just dont know about u. maybe u do? but point is, when im alone or sth, i tend to start thinking bout all these..yet i know we should take life as it comes. be happy while we can. no use worrying, it wont solve anything. i know at least in my case, that God will protect me and do wat he thinks is best for me. but the knowledge is within me, its like a big heavy rock.when you're gone, pieces of my heart is missing youmaaf, sorry for the emo post.